I’m drawn to throwing with porcelain because of its demands. The devotion and patience required to understand the material is simultaneously required for reflecting upon and understanding myself. Learning how to allow the porcelain to take the gentle, deliberate form of my work provides me an opportunity to find acceptance, gratitude, and satisfaction within myself.
Using porcelain on the wheel is a practice of dedication and sacrifice which leads to an exploration of my personal relationship between control and surrender. An attempt to use an incredibly strong yet fickle material to create a piece that is refined yet humble mirrors the journey of accepting my emotions and self-expression.
There are no short cuts when throwing with porcelain. Every one of its challenging, frustrating, and difficult characteristics must be understood and worked through in order to create a successful porcelain ware. No issue can be ignored; the material will crack, warp, collapse, etc. Learning how to address each problem with using porcelain has at times proved to be a maddening experience. This process is a direct parallel to the history and current state of my mental health and has given me invaluable insight into coping with my own existence and experience as a flawed human being. I, along with my art, am always worth the struggle and pain it takes to climb out of whatever valley I have found myself in.
My work allows me to project the quality, struggle, and evolution of my own experience on to pieces that will eventually be a part of another’s daily life. It’s a wonder to be able to turn my own quest for self-love and beauty into a tangible item, such as a coffee mug or a teacup, that another will appreciate and be encouraged by in some small way to also seek out what they desire.